I don’t even know how to start this. My hands won’t stop shaking and I’ve typed this out four times already. I keep deleting it because I’m scared if I put it in words, it becomes real.

Tate is five. He’s the kind of kid who notices everything but never says a word about it. Last Wednesday, the world as I knew it stopped at 7:45 in the morning. His teacher, Mrs. Dempsey, found him out in the sandbox at Garfield Elementary. The school was empty. No other kids. Just Tate, alone, digging a hole with his bare hands.