Marcus still had salt crust on the brass buttons of his dress whites when our front door finally clicked open at 4:15 in the afternoon. He dropped his heavy canvas sea bag right on the welcome mat, making a dull thud that shook the hallway table, and stood there blinking at our framed wedding picture like he had to convince himself he was actually back in Virginia. The air in the house smelled of lemon floor cleaner and the frozen lasagna I had shoved into the oven twenty minutes too early because my hands were shaking so hard I could barely turn the knob. He reached out and touched Tori on the top of her head while she sat cross-legged on the rug coloring a mermaid, and for about three seconds everything felt normal. Then his phone buzzed in his pocket at 6:41 the next morning.
He didn’t answer it right away because he was standing by the stove waiting for the kettle to whistle, but it buzzed twice more in rapid succession before he pulled it out. He stepped away toward the laundry room, his boots squeaking slightly on the linoleum, and I heard him say that can’t be right to whoever was on the other end. When he walked back out into the kitchen, his face had gone completely still. Not angry yet, just flat and drained of color. Gina, he said, and his voice sounded thin, why is First Carolina saying we are two payments behind? I told him we weren’t because I wasn’t the kind of person who missed bills.
I had been paying every single household expense out of our joint account on the third of every month without fail. The mortgage was $1,487, and I knew that figure by heart because I wrote it down in a blue spiral notebook from Dollar General the way my mother taught me when I got my first apartment at nineteen. Marcus’s Navy base pay came in on the first and the fifteenth, Raymond moved whatever was needed for the house, and I distributed the rest. That had been the arrangement from the very beginning of the deployment because Marcus trusted his father more than any banking app or website on the internet. Raymond was retired Navy himself, he wore the veteran cap everywhere he went, and he liked to remind us he handled logistics for thirty years.