My heart dropped. “What does that mean?” “It means I don’t want to speculate.”

Sophie turned her head toward me. “Mom?” I leaned down. “I’m here.” “Am I pregnant?”

I swallowed. “We’re going to find out.” “But everybody keeps looking at me like I did something bad.”

PART 4

The room went silent after Dr. Ortiz said the word mass.

I stared at the ultrasound screen, trying to understand the collection of gray and black shapes that meant absolutely nothing to me.

“A mass where?”

Dr. Ortiz pointed carefully at the monitor.

“Near the left ovary.”

My knees nearly gave out.

“Is it cancer?”

“We don’t know.”

“Then tell me what you do know.”

She looked at Sophie.

“We know this isn’t a normal pregnancy. We know the tissue is producing beta-hCG, which explains the positive pregnancy tests. And we know the bleeding means we need to investigate immediately.”

PART 5

The date written beneath Sophie’s name was burned into my mind.

October 17.

Eleven months earlier.

I knew exactly where Sophie had been that day.

At least, I thought I did.

She had been nine years old.

It had been a Tuesday.

She’d come home from school complaining that she was tired. Eric had picked her up that afternoon because I had been working late.