The pawnshop owner was still turning the key in the front door when I pulled up beside the curb, my church shoes wet from Linda’s graveside service. I had 4:40 written on the back of a grocery receipt because I didn’t trust myself to remember anything that day. In my purse were a pawn ticket, a ring appraisal, and Linda’s last grocery list. I had not decided what I was going to do with any of it.