The lobby of the clinic smelled like lemon wax and quiet desperation. It was 10:04 on a Tuesday morning. I smoothed the fabric of my skirt. Martin was standing by the window, checking his reflection in the glass. He straightened his silk tie for the third time. He loved being the center of things. Even here, in a place where people came to deal with the messy reality of their own bodies, he performed. He acted as if he were just passing through, a man too busy and too important to be bothered by something as common as health.