The airport smelled like stale coffee, cheap floor cleaner, and wet wool coats. I had imagined Lily’s face the whole twelve-hour ride home from San Antonio, picturing her little blond pigtails bouncing as she ran across the terminal. She was four years old then, old enough to remember her dad, or at least I thought she was. I carried a stuffed armadillo in my left hand and a heavy canvas duffel over my right shoulder, my neck stiff from sleeping upright against a Greyhound window.