I looked at the screen, but all I saw were teeth and gray shadows. I felt a sudden, frantic need to fill the silence. I started talking about the trampoline at my ex-husband Brent’s place over in Corbin. I told her about the gravel driveway, the two big dogs, the way kids were always tumbling around. I was handing her the excuse before she even asked for it. I was trying to build a wall of plausible explanations between me and the truth. Dr. Keene just watched me, her expression steady and sad.
“He told my hygienist he bit a fork,” she said.
I felt the air leave the room. I walked back into the treatment room, my legs feeling like they belonged to someone else. I looked at Mason. He wasn’t crying. He was just sitting there, calm and still, watching the little plastic fish swim in circles. I knelt down in front of him, keeping my voice steady.
“Mason, honey, what happened at Daddy’s house?” I whispered.
He didn’t look at me at first. He kept his eyes on the fish tank. “Daddy says brave boys don’t tell Mom,” he said.
He said it just like he was reciting a rule for a game. It was a practiced, rehearsed line. The dread settled into my bones then, cold and heavy. I looked at the little chair in the corner, the one they put parents in during fillings, and I sat down because my knees simply wouldn’t hold me anymore. Dr. Keene came back in and asked if I wanted her to call someone. I wanted to say no, because I knew Brent. I knew how he could be in offices. He was a master of the polite, charming act. He held doors. He called women ma’am. He told everyone who would listen that I was the one who was unstable, the one who was making things difficult after the divorce.
But then I saw the backpack. It was sitting on the floor by the door. I reached over and opened the side pocket, looking for his tablet, but my fingers brushed against a piece of heavy, purple stationery. I pulled it out. It was a note from Tasha, Brent’s new wife. It was written in a sharp, hurried script. It said that Mason had been, quote, dramatic about normal discipline, and that I should really stop babying him if I wanted him to grow into a man.